October 25, 2016

its that time...

Every year at this time I take a deep breath and get my game face on. This year its heightened a bit because its a big year for 2/3 of us. Adam turns the big 4-0 this Saturday and B turns the big 1-0 just a few days later! My sweet husband who usually never wants a party requested a big bash this year, and my daughter informed me that since she is now going to be double digits she thinks this year should be "extra special." Sigh, no pressure, right?! I told B that I try really hard to make every birthday special and I'm not really sure what more I could do to make this one "extra" but that I would try. Poor girl, she really wanted this to be her "Sleep Over" party year but in this rental house...it ain't gonna happen so I told her that her "extra special" birthday would need to wait until next year, but this would just be a typical special birthday -ha! Its going to be a roller skating party at the ol' rink, we all hate our rental house and its just not conducive to entertaining. Our dear friends graciously accepted my request to host Adam's party in their backyard so, this weekend we'll be having some GOOD BBQ from our favorite hole in the wall, some yard games, some dancing, and good drinks as we cheers to my sweet husband and his big 40th! After his b-day, we've of course got Halloween and sweet B is on a roll with Harry Potter these days so she opted to be Hermione this year, I bet she'll be cute! :) And as usual by the time it gets to my birthday I'm exhausted and sweet-toothed out so, no plans for me this year! Truth be told I kinda had my birthday "treat" this weekend. My friend Anna and I attended our second "outstanding in the field" event which is the most amazing farm to table experience that was worth every penny and every calorie! I told Adam next year when I turn 40 its gonna be about me and he and B can fend for themselves! Ha! (I kid...kinda ;)

So, lots going on around here and lots of holiday shoots and editing in the midst of the crazy. Our house has YET to be started but we're hopeful for this week (PLEASE LORD!), apparently we're waiting on the dirt guy...sigh. We'll get there. Just blogged a cute mini session, check it out HERE. xo

October 20, 2016

nothing good

There is a worship song that stops me dead in my tracks with the first line, each time I hear it it reminds me of how human I am, what a sinner I am, and how some times there really is nothing good in me. I appreciate songs that remind me of my own humanity because with that comes the reminder that I need a savior and thankfully, I've got one. I was talking to a dear friend recently who is in the process of a major life change, she is walking away from a religion that has fed her lies and made her feel a horrible sense of judgement and of being less than. She said to me with this newfound freedom and awareness "Jesus is enough!" She's realized that this particular church/religion that has been holding her captive for 40 years isn't the answer, that Jesus is the answer and that He alone is sufficient. That's what I'm reminded of when I hear these lyrics:

You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me
you are love, you are love on display for all to see
you are light, you are light when the darkness closes in
you are hope, you are hope you have covered all my sin
you are peace, you are peace when my fear is crippling
you are true, you are true even in my wandering
you are joy, you are joy you're the reason that I sing
you are life, you are life in you death has lost its sting

(Forever Reign/Hillsong)

Some days/moments/times there really isn't anything good in me, but thankfully God is good all the time and He alone is sufficient, He alone is enough. This is a good reminder for me today, maybe someone else out there needed a reminder. xo

October 17, 2016

justice & other things

I do a lot of thinking and processing these days, its sort of become my norm over the last several years more than in the past. I think this comes with age and more awareness of others and the world around us, and brokenness. I love my church, I've been in church my whole life and I've always wanted to be there but there is just something about my current church that compels me, that draws me to it in a way that no other church has. I don't skip church....ever. I mean, if I'm out of town or something, sure, but if I am in Waco, on Sunday mornings, I'm at church, and its because I can't not be there because I want to be there so badly. I remember one time years ago when we lived here, I just wasn't feeling super hot, Adam and I were both especially tired and we made the decision to just not go to church that Sunday, oh man, did we hear about it! Brennan could not believe we weren't going to church, she was so perplexed and frustrated and irritated with Adam and I and made us promise that we would go the next week! I still smile when I think about that, I remember as a kid if my parents would have given me a "pass" on a Sunday morning, I would've probably thought "eh, no big deal, we'll have a lazy day" but not B, she wanted to go to church! Then fast forward to our time in CA where we tried 15 churches in 22 months and we all left depressed week after week and Brennan would ask "Do we HAVE to go??" every Sunday, man, that was a heart breaker. There is something about UBC that the three of us have in our veins, I think in some ways it defines who we are, we are a part of UBC, we are a part of something bigger than ourselves. We go each week and we are changed each week, and that is a unique thing. One of the many reasons I love UBC is because it challenges me, I leave with certain things rolling around in my head that make me pause, I leave feeling convicted of certain things, encouraged in certain things, and often with a challenge before me of something I need to do or just be better (at). That is the marker of a good church I think, you shouldn't leave the same week after week....right?

A couple weeks ago Josh said a few things that I could really relate to, that really struck a cord with me. His sermon was called "a place for anger in discipleship." I think so often Christians are taught that anger is bad, or that it isn't what Jesus would have us do with our emotions, or that we just all need to walk around with a smile on our face regardless of our circumstance because that's "Christian." Man, what a joke! This hasn't been my experience per se but I have had conversations with people where I've said "Its okay to be angry!! Jesus got angry! Its what we DO with our anger that is the problem." Right?. Josh said "There are some moments that you never mend from, you learn to live with a limp, living means moving through life with a part of your heart un-reconciled. We all have those events, what do you do when this happens?" And "Anger is a real emotion and it has a place in Christian faith. Rage belongs before God, God loves and does justice." These things really resonated with me, there are a couple deep wounds that I carry with me, and will until the day I die, even if they get "made right" the memory will never be gone, the pain of those moments won't ever fully be forgotten, but its such a poignant reminder that my anger about these wounds is valid, I have been wronged and God knows those wrongs, and he is the one in charge of the justice on my behalf. Thank you, Jesus. I was talking to someone recently who is older and wiser and who loves Jesus more than I do (those are good people to know :) and she knows one of my deep wounds and she was telling me to ask Jesus to bring justice for me, she challenged me to cry out to Him and ask him to bring to me what I cannot bring to myself. I had someone recently tell me that I wanted justice in an area of my life, and the way they were saying this to me was as though it was a bad thing, I was essentially being scolded for wanting/seeking justice. My reply was that I absolutely wanted justice! I make/made no bones about that -I am a justice seeker all.day.long. And the truth is, so is Jesus. Wanting justice isn't a bad thing, its a good thing, but we can't always bring that about ourselves, so we need to implore the one who can, and we should, this is a healthy thing to do with our hurt/anger; and as previously mentioned, its not the anger that gets us into trouble, its what we do with the anger. Christians should be justice seekers, wanting to be more like Jesus entails wanting and seeking justice. xo

October 10, 2016

Play With Fire

I recently read the book "Play With Fire" by Bianca Juarez Olthoff, its brand new and worth the read. I read this book in two days, it was so relateable after my 2 years in California (which can largely be referred to as "my time in the wilderness/desert"). In this book Bianca is essentially recounting her own journey of her time in "the wilderness," of feeling alone and broken in the wake of her personal heartache, and of how God was faithful and brought her out of that season. I love real stories, the books I'm most drawn to are that of real life stories where God redeems brokenness, I love being reminded of what I know is true but easily forget.

"In our moments of confusion, fear, loss, and darkness, we have a God whose presence is with us, who answers us when we cry out. And when He responds, when He shows up in the desert, we have one job: worship God."

"God doesn't lead us out of bondage and into our own deserts simply for the sake of our own freedom. He leads us into the desert that we might learn to worship Him. And here's the truth -we cannot worship God for the gifts of freedom and salvation without having known captivity and desolation first. When we know the cost of our freedom, it drives our worship. True worship almost always happens in the desert wilderness, and praise is almost always the answer to a plea that rises up in us while we are in the desert."

"When we forget about what God has done, it makes us doubt what he can do. When we remember His promises, when we remember his goodness, when we remember His miracles, we can hold on to hope that He will rescue us in our time of need."

These are just a few "nuggets" that I took away from this read. I have found these statements to be true in my own life, I have tasted and seen that God is good and that true worship evolves from real pain. If you're looking for an encouraging read and want to be reminded of God's faithfulness and that your pain is not in vain, I'd get this book.

We had a great weekend! The weather is FINALLY cooling off a bit here so we wanted to spend the majority of the weekend outside -it was so nice! We hung out with friends, we went to the zoo, the farmers market, and to the heart of Texas fair -fun! Today B is out of school for Columbus day so we're having a lazy day at home (per her request). I've got wedding editing to do and laundry piled high, but my pumpkin spice candles are burning and its only going to be 84 degrees today so -a lovely fall day it is! :) Hope everyone has a great week, as always, thanks for reading! xo

October 5, 2016

some thoughts on obedience

I came across this quote today and it caused me pause:

"The pain of regret in the end game is worse than the pain of obedience initially."
(Christine Caine)

Isn't that just the truth, though? Obedience can be painful, it can cost you something, and some times that cost is high, but isn't it so much better than the regret that you're stuck with if you willingly choose not to obey in the first place? I've seen this lived out more in the past couple years of my life than ever before. I've watched as several people's disobedience has caused this path of brokenness and regret and excuses and pain, and I have to believe the initial "hard" of the obedience would have been the lesser of the evils. It brings to mind Romans 7:15 "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." We're all guilty of this, Lord knows I'm not immune, but the older I get I find I do better. This isn't me tooting my own horn, but I rarely say something I regret, I just don't. I think long and hard before I speak and I speak with intention and honesty, I'm not saying I don't feel badly for the ways in which I say things that can be hurtful - that I can apologize for all day long, but it is rare when I apologize for something I've said because I genuinely think before I speak and I mean what I say and I say what I mean. This has come with age, time, wisdom, practicing the fruits of self-control, and honestly, not wanting to have to apologize. Don't misunderstand me here, I'm ALL for apologizing when I'm wrong, in fact, I really appreciate the freedom the words "I'm so sorry, I was wrong" bring. But if you think before you speak, and you do the right thing the first time, you'll find you don't need to apologize as often because you're living intentionally, and there's a lot of value in that. No one likes to be wrong, myself included, but if you live long enough we're all gonna be that person -that, once again, is part of the human experience. The real "deal" if you will is what you do when you are wrong, when you weren't obedient the first go around, when you didn't do the right thing in the moment and the moment slips away. I guess the first part of the deal is the admission that you didn't do the right thing, and often that can be hard to see/ascertain, but once you get there -then what? (I feel like I started this blog post in one direction and am ending up somewhere else but I'm just gonna roll with it). I was talking to a friend of mine several months ago, back in CA, and she was talking about how she felt like her parents generation didn't learn how to apologize properly, and I found this so interesting, to think of the 'art of apologizing' as a generational gap (I'm not saying this is true, just an interesting thought that hadn't occurred to me prior). The more she spoke the more I could relate, I could relate to the idea of people dancing around an apology and using language like "I may have overstepped" or "I guess I can see how this might have..." all these words that people use instead of owning their crap and just saying "I was wrong, I shouldn't have done X, can you please forgive me?" There is power in the words "I was wrong" -it does something to people, it puts the offended's "hackles down" and puts the offender in a place of submission, those are good things!! AND its ownership, there is such value in owning your crap, in claiming it and admitting wholeheartedly that you messed up. There is freedom there, for all involved.

At Young Life camps, at the end of the week we have "say so" night, its an opportunity for students who have made a decision to follow Christ to stand up and "say so" -to confess they are a new creation, that they are choosing to not live for themselves but for Jesus. I love say so night, I always get chills hearing these precious student's stories and it reminds me why I pour into people and do youth ministry -that's the good stuff of life. My point is this, there is something to be said for the power of just saying so. If you have wronged someone: SAY SO, if you owe someone an apology: SAY SO, if you haven't been obedient to what you know is the right thing and you've used every excuse in the book as to why you haven't done the right thing: SAY SO, if you were wrong and you need to confess: SAY SO, if you are broken and need some redemption: SAY SO. Obedience may cost you something, but it is assuredly better than the regret of silence. Jesus would and did and does say something, so if you're looking for an example, that's where I'd start. xo


Each week our church sends out a newsletter called "In the Life of the Church" -this past week's has a blog written by our pastor called "The Importance of Owning a Mistake" and I'm sharing the link HERE - seems fitting.

September 29, 2016

September 21, 2016

Unreasonable Hope

Well, since my last blog post I've read 3 more books. I've fallen into a bit of a new rhythm in this phase of life, I've been working, not a ton but more and have another wedding I'm shooting this Saturday (and I was supposed to be in LA this weekend for my dear friend's 40th birthday party, hate to miss - Love you, Ems!). Things with the house are slow as molasses but we are CLOSE to FINALLY breaking ground. Brennan is doing well in 4th grade and won her first volleyball game last week! I've been waiting nearly 10 years for my girl to play volleyball and I am LOVING it! Adam is getting into the swing of his new job/commute and we're all settling into a new normal around here.

As always, God continues to work on my heart and mold me into the person He wants me to be. For 2ish years now I have been a voracious reader, reading anything that I feel will enlighten me, encourage me, inspire me, remind me of the truth, challenge me, help to make me better- more like Jesus, and to bring purpose/understanding to my pain. We all have deep wounds we bring to the table, no one in this life is unscathed, that's the human experience and a common thread that ties us all together regardless of our circumstance.

I recently read the book "Unreasonable Hope" by Chad Veach. In all honesty, I wasn't too interested in reading this book. Chad and his wife moved from Washington to Los Angeles to start a church about a year ago. Due to the internet I knew a bit about Chad and his family, I knew his daughter had a life threatening illness, I knew he was a "big shot" pastor in that he can be found hanging out with celebrities and he and his wife always looks like they just walked out of a photo shoot. This isn't meant to sound derogatory, I'm sure they're amazing people who I'd love to know personally, there just wasn't anything in particular that made me want/eager to read his book. (*sidenote: Adam, B and I attended his church in LA one Sunday, and although they are doing an amazing thing in LA, it just wasn't for us, so we did have a personal encounter as well). Anyhoo -sorry, that was a long paragraph to not say much. Okay, so, this book was an honest look at a dad's heart who longs and believes for his sick daughter to be healed. What eventually made me decide to read this book was I couldn't shake the cover, it reads: "Unreasonable Hope: Finding faith in the God who brings purpose to your pain." In a season where I've been longing and crying out for God to bring purpose to my pain, I couldn't not read it, it was too enticing and that tagline is what I've been so thirsty for. There were many "nuggets" here and there throughout the book, and in line with most books I've been reading, it reminded me of what I know to be true about God. My "take away" from the book was the distinction that Chad makes between having faith in God and having hope. "You have so much faith in who I am and what I can do, but you have no hope for your situation." (pg. 177) This isn't a new concept for me per se, I know there have been times in my life where I prayed to God for something, believing He heard me and I had faith He cared, but I know I had little hope that He would "do" what I was asking of Him because it just seemed too impossible (and of course we're actually supposed to pray believing). In one large area of my life to which I'm referring -He answered my years and years worth of prayers despite my unbelief/hope. Man, I'm thankful the Lord works in spite of us! So, this book didn't necessarily enlighten me to a new concept per se but it reminded me that there is a distinct difference between having faith and having hope -and even if your hope is unreasonable, God can do the unreasonable. There is currently an area of my life that I have little hope of getting fully healed, it just seems so unlikely on this side of heaven, and I'm learning to (in some ways) be okay with that because, life does indeed go on, but I appreciated Chad's reminder that I still need to live with hope that it can be healed, because God can do that, He can, even if He doesn't. Big sigh....Amen. xo

August 26, 2016


Its been a pretty chill couple of weeks around here, we're all settling into our new routines and figuring life out a bit, feels good. Its been a weird phase of life for me for a few reasons, although I'm shooting here and there it will take time to re-build my business so while I'm used to editing most of the day I've had some free time....kinda weird. Also, typically we are leading a mi casa so I'm used to college students being in my house or preparing food for them, or meeting with them, etc. and we decided to wait a year to resume mi casa life due to our current lack of space, no dishwasher, 1 sketchy toilet situation, etc. :) And, on that note, we're not in our own space so, half of our stuff is in storage, we're building a house and will soon (please Lord) be busy with all that entails, and I just don't have all my normal tasks that I'd have if I were in my own space. All that to say, its been an interesting season of life for me and I'm trying some new things and reading some new books and trying to enjoy this "break" rather than be bummed by it (if that makes sense?). Adam is adjusting to his commute, poor guy left super early for work a couple days ago, he was going to work out at the gym first and he got all the way to Belton and realized he left his "school" clothes at home!! He had to make the 2 hour drive twice that day!! I have a feeling that will be the last time he makes that oops! B is liking school fine, school has never been her thing per se but she seems to be adjusting well and looks pretty cute in her uniform (if I do say so myself :). Our weekends have been fun and relaxed, its amazing how we'll go into the weekend with little on the agenda but then we'll get a text Friday at 5pm asking us to come over for dinner, and then Saturday some friends will see if we can do dinner that night, and then after church we do our usual post-church lunch with friends and then we've been resuming our drinks with friends Sunday evening before another week starts. Its fun how life organically happens here without a month's notice (which was CA life), it just feels right and good. Cousin Mike is coming into town next week so we're looking forward to seeing him and rooting on the Astros together, always fun. Speaking of root[ed] (see what I did there? ;) I just finished a book by Banning Liebscher called Rooted, the tagline is "the hidden places where God develops you." It seemed like a good read for this stage of my life and I've been reading it here and there the past 2 weeks and just finished it last night. There were some wise words on those pages, I thought I'd share a few of the "nuggets" that seem especially relevant to me at this place in my life (I like to pass on life-giving things, hope someone out there finds some good stuff here).

"I've had seasons in life where I've had nothing and seasons where I've had everything, I've developed the ability to thrive in both seasons by learning to access the resource that never changes, no matter the season, namely, Christ's strength."

"We'll never thrive in the process unless we accept the place where God has put us, because that is the only place He will work with us. Faithfulness and obedience call us to recognize what God is asking us to put our hands to and what He is emphasizing in our lives."

"God always calls us to do the impossible."

"God feels no pressure to rush or force His plan for our growth, He is calm, steady, and collected even when we want things to speed up. Our frustration will not make God speed up, because He knows we won't get the results we've prayed for."

"You have to learn to love the cave. If you love the spotlight more than the secret place, you're in trouble, because it means you care more about pleasing people than pleasing God. Learn to love when you don't get the credit. Learn to love when you get passed over."

"Tested, proven, genuine faith comes when we let God lead us into weakness. That is a reason to rejoice."

"You will never find satisfaction or experience what you were created for outside encountering the presence of God. Everything you will ever need is found in the presence of God, for it is there you find the reason you were created."

"We need an entire generation awake to what God can do and all the possibilities that flow from His ability. We are often more aware of what the Enemy can do than what God can do. We need to stop being impressed with darkness."

"I've found that there's almost nothing in life that we're supposed to figure out on our own."

"So what kind of legacy do you want to leave? You are chosen and appointed to bear fruit that lasts for eternity, just like David. just like Christ. But it's your choice to remain in Christ. Will you let Him teach you to trust Him at all times, even in weakness? Will you let Him plant you where He wants you, and will you embrace His time line for establishing your roots? Will you put your roots down deep in the soils of intimacy, serving, and community? Every day you get to choose between human success and God's success, between the temporal and the eternal...."

I'd recommend this book if you want to be reminded of what needs to take place in your life to be rooted in Christ, its an easy read with lots of good stuff. Have a great weekend, friends. xo

August 9, 2016

always something

We're back from vacation and it was lovely and wonderful and B starts school tomorrow so its come to an abrupt end. But its okay, its been quite a summer and I think we're all (mostly) ready for the fall/real life to resume.

I made mention a bit ago that recently my pastor's father died. On Sunday he preached about his dad and I was on a cruise ship so I missed it but I listened to the podcast this morning, as my friend warned me, it was an "ugly cry" resulting sermon. Josh's dad was also a pastor so as you can imagine, Josh has lots of stories and memories of his dad ministering to others and loving others well. Part of Josh's sermon that is resonating in my mind is when he recalled a conversation in which he asked his dad "why do some people believe in God and some don't?" to which is dad replied "those that have an experience with God, believe in God." Isn't that the truth? Haven't we all heard a story or two (or many) where someone has an encounter with God that is so profound, its life changing? That there literally can be no more room for doubt because of the experience that took place. I love those stories because they remind me of what I know to be true when I'm in a tough spot. I've encountered God...many times, and as I've said here many times, I would be the fool not to believe at this point. But it still begs the question of why God doesn't "show up" sometimes, doesn't it? Today I read a post that a mom wrote to her daughter and the part that struck me said "I am just as proud + in love with you when you fall down because I've learned that is where we find more of God." For me, this was the reminder that so often when we feel like God isn't "showing up" for us, its because in/thru/after that "hard" we will have found more of Him than we otherwise would have. It reminds me of the Jen Hatmaker quote I wrote here months and months ago, that perhaps we would 'squash the lovely vision if we obtained it too soon.' So really, by God "not showing up" He's actually showing up in ways we just can't see yet. As my wise (profoundly wise) aunt has said to me many times over the past 2 years "God is always doing something." I realize this isn't new information for this here blog, just sometimes it hits me in new ways and I write because I feel compelled to do so, maybe someone out there needed to hear it today?

Well, today is Adam's second day of his new job (which really, isn't work yet -just orientation), and B is a 4th grader tomorrow back at her old school, kinda feels like a time warp! And house stuff is still sloooooooooooooooooooooow, sigh. We are super close to the plans for the inside being done, the outside still needs some work but hopefully -we're on the final stretch! All in all, we're doing well and gearing up for another year! Hope everyone is having a lovely August! xo

July 28, 2016

someone else's prayer

I came across this prayer today and it spoke to my heart so I'm sharing it here.

it is in YOU Jesus that I have
found who i am and my purpose....
thank you for taking my hand in rescue
so that i can in turn take others hands connecting
Yours and theirs
my story has taught me compassion, transforming
me into someone who
can enter into others pain, even when it is different
than mine or i don't understand
i don't even care anymore
there isn't time to whine + be victims
we are sons and daughters of the KING
i want to stop the world for just a day and do nothing
but think on that truth
because if we did....really did....and really believed it.....
we would be
radically changed from the inside out
transformed into misfits, pioneers, warriors,
renegades, giant slayers
freedom fighters from another world....heaven!
going forth with no fear!!!
i know i have to forge ahead up the mountain with the
One i love
so much to still grow into but that is the adventure of
it all
it is never boring
some seasons are hard as hell but to be SET FREE!
i would climb a million mountains with you as my
companion Papa!! to help others with your story to
be set free
that is the PRIZE.

(Tiffani, House of Belonging)

July 25, 2016


Summer is winding down for us and truth be told, I'm not too sad about it. As I've said, its been a weird summer for us and I'm getting ready for the normalcy the fall brings. This past week was pretty good, we had dinners with friends, B had a 24 hour play date which enabled Adam and I to spend the day in Austin which was lovely, B and Adam had some father/daughter dates and it was just a relaxing time. This past week was kinda hard too, our pastor Josh, his dad passed away and sadly, he passed on Josh's birthday which is just hard. It's times like these where I'm reminded just how precious life is and how quickly it can change, and how I want to live being intentional and thankful for the many gifts I've been given.

This week is our last week before our family vacation and then we get back and hit the ground running. Adam starts his new job the day after we get back and B starts school 3 days later! We really are in the final stretch of this weird summer and although parts were long and hard it really did go pretty darn fast overall. Tomorrow I meet with the house draft guy and we should be able to finalize our plans so we can FINALLY get a date on the calendar to break ground, I'm SO ready for that! Its amazing how many steps there are to this process, I'm ready to get the ball rolling! I hope everyone is having a good week, thanks for checking in on us! xo

July 18, 2016

house draft(s)

Well, we just got house draft #3 back from draft guy annnnnnd, its still not right. Sigh. I knew this process would be a lot of back and forth, its hard to communicate what's in your head sometimes but I didn't realize how long it would take to get each draft once changes were communicated. I was hopeful we would have broken ground by now but now its looking like August. Sigh. Today I made a list of changes for each room and it came out to 26 things that need to be changed/updated. This might sound like a lot but really, most of the changes are minor and in my mind should take 2 seconds to fix! The draft guy is out of the office all week (which...he was just out of the office for a week like 30 seconds ago) so that's frustrating b/c I was thinking maybe this week we could get the ball rolling! Just trying to take lots of deep breaths... we'll get there.

In other news it is SO nice to have Adam home! He started driving earlier than he had anticipated so he made it home Saturday versus Sunday and it was so fun to see him show up at our friend's house! We have a lazy week ahead of trips to the water park, movies, low key dinners,  play dates/overnights, etc. as summer should be. :) We're all ready for our cruise, 2 more weeks, can't wait! Hope everyone is having a relaxing summer and drinking lots of lemonade. xo

July 14, 2016

the final stretch

It's been a long week and a half, but we're in the final stretch before Adam comes home! This is just a weird summer for our family, we're SO elated to be here but its been hard too.Recently Adam was gone for almost a week, now he's in a 2 week stretch of being gone, we aren't going to the northwest like we usually do which is sad and poor B is having a hard time with that, etc. Its just not a typical summer and summer in Waco is like a ghost town, so many people are gone, Baylor isn't in session, etc.. just not the best place to be in July. :( Boo. Thankfully my mom was here this past week and she saved the day! (Happy birthday, Mom!). It was so nice for her to play with B, and to chat with me and to be a welcome distraction when our hearts are missing Adam and our typical summer plans. This week B is at gymnastics  camp and we have some play dates and fun things planned so we're gonna make it!

In other news I'm supposedly getting the third set of drafts for our house today, fingers crossed! We literally cannot do one thing until the final draft is right and its been lots of back and forth so here's to hoping this is "the one!" I know building a house is trying on the ol' patience so I'm trying to let it roll..this literally is just the beginning and I know that. {and anyone who knows me knows patience isn't my strong suit so...I'm sure I've got a big opportunity for growth here the next 9ish months!}

I've been asked a lot how B is doing with the move, if she's happy to be here, if she misses CA, etc. so I'll address that here. :) B is doing well, I have seen her "Come back to life" a bit since moving home, and I know she is thrilled to be here. This summer has been hard for the reasons listed above so that's definitely taken a toll but I think once school starts she'll be "back to normal" and this season will fade away. The other day I was buying something and the cashier asked to see my drivers license, he said "Oh, California huh?" and I said "Well, yeah, we live here now, I just haven't gotten a new license yet." And he proceeded to look at B and he said "Do you miss CA?" And without skipping a beat she said "Nope!" That made my heart smile. She's home, and it feels really good to her too. Happy sigh.

I try not to wish time away, believing that time really is precious and a gift but I sure am eager for it to be Sunday when Adam comes home! Prayers for him as he drives here from CA would be appreciated. :) As always, thanks for checking in. xo