today is gonna be a rough one

I've been dreading this day ever since I heard about "it." My poor little girl has been having re-occurring urinary tract infections and they just won't go away! (well, for more than a month anyway). So, since there is concern that urine could be making its way up to her kidneys she has to go into the hospital today for an invasive test to see if her kidneys are okay. Sigh. I have a friend who's daughter has gone thru this...several times in fact and she told me that it is indeed awful. I also was talking to B's doctor about it and she said "you should be scared, it really is awful. I wish medical science had a better way of figuring this stuff out but at this time we don't, and its a bad thing to go thru." AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. As a mother this clearly kills me. I realize I shouldn't complain, there are parents out there with really sick kids who go thru much worse than this every.single.day. but still, she's my baby, my only baby and its heart breaking. I would take her place if I could, and happily if it would spare her this yuckiness. So, for all of you reading this, if you believe in God or not, I'm asking that you say a little pray for my girl today, that it would go smoothly, that she wouldn't be too afraid, and that it would be fast and relatively painless, and that there would in fact be no kidney damage. From a nervous mom, I thank you from the very bottom of my heart. xo