This whole are we moving/are we not moving thing is wearing. We will know soon enough and this whole waiting game will all be over but for the time being...its wearing. It's also such a weird place to be emotionally b/c Adam and I have such mixed feelings about it all. There have been times in the past where we have wanted a particular job so badly we could taste it, and then didn't get it and were left heartbroken and with many questions, that at the time, had no answers. This time is different, this time we don't have a strong/passionate/I want this ____ outcome, we're torn. This time this process is easier b/c we are in a better place, emotionally, physically, maybe even spiritually. We love it here, we love our house, our community, our church, B's school, etc. It's a weird place to be.
I always sit and stare at things around the house, its just what I do. I look at how the light pours into a room, or how it doesn't in another (thats the photog in me), I look at a light fixture that I hate and obsess about how I want to change it out, I stare at a wall and how the paint color looks different on the same wall 2 yards away, etc.. It's just what I do, always thinking/plotting/planning how I want to change things or leave them exactly the same. I think its part of the creative process in my brain that doesn't ever quite get turned off. Lately I've been taking notice of little nooks around my house, things I will miss if we have to move. Some things can be re-created in a different home, but some can't. I love this little spot in my kitchen, I love the window, the old chair that B stands on and stares outside, the 2 hook which holds her aprons, etc.. Its something I will miss if we have to move, so for now, I'll continue to stare. xo