March 31, 2016

March 23, 2016

I want an oompa loompa now daddy

Anyone who has seen Charlie and the Chocolate Factory knows this line, Veruca Salt says this to her dad in the whiniest, most obnoxious, spoiled, entitled way "I want an oompa loompa now daddy!" Adam and I often say this to each other and we say it to Brennan and Brennan says it to us - all in good fun when we want something that we know we don't deserve, or when we want something that's coming to us but we want it NOW. Its an on-going joke in our little family but we all know what it means in the moment and it renders a good laugh or some understanding of how hard it is to wait. I HATE WAITING. I am in a season of my life where I'm waiting...for several things...and I hate it, like HATE it. I've spent some good time talking about waiting on this here blog, its something I've struggled with for as long as I can recall and the deeper into my walk with the Lord I get, I don't find that it gets much easier (insert cringy crying emoji). I've been very intentional about trying to wait better (whatever that means!) and I try to give my frustrations over to the Lord for him to deal with, that does help some I guess. I'm reading a book right now with some good stuff, [I'd rather not give the name of the book b/c it implies something that leads to questions I can't answer on this public forum but if you know me personally and want to know, you can shoot me an email and I'll pass along the info]. Anyhoo - I read something today that stopped me dead in my tracks, and as with anything that I find helpful/interesting/of value to me and thus maybe to someone else I share it here. It said : "The work that God does in us when we wait is usually more important than the thing for which we wait!" DOH. Right?! I'm waiting for several things in my life, some exciting and hopeful things, some hard and kind of icky things but I find this relevant with all my waiting. As much as I hate limbo and the in between, its so crazy to realize that even when those "things" come to fruition, this process is/can be the "meat" if you will. Sigh.

Its no secret that God uses bad to bring about good -that's all over the Bible so clearly that's no revelation and as I've discussed many times this past year+ good things come from pain, but another line from my book that "got me" today was: "I've had to conclude that God would not allow spear throwers into my life if He did not intend that their arrows bear fruit in my life." UGHHHHH, its so hard, and I don't like hard! But is sooooooooooooo (unfortunately -insert cringy face) true! [Btw the definition of a "spear thrower" is someone who lives by their own set of rules, who has a manipulative and divisive spirit, displays acute insecurity and jealousy, etc...]. I'm sure we either all have someone like this in our life or at the very least we know of someone like this. Man, the process of refinement is so.dang.hard. and it wears me out sometimes. I hope this doesn't come across as self-righteous, I'm a disaster in my own right so this isn't me being judge-y - "look at these messed up people I have to deal with that only make me better." That's SO not my point, my point is simply that we all have things/people/issues in our life that are hard and (maybe) don't appear to be going anywhere, and our job is to figure out how to respond the right way in the midst of this reality and to be "better." Not a self-righteous better, but better as in a better person, choosing the high road when it would be so easy not to b/c God is using whatever ___X____ scenario is in my/your life to bring about fruit (ie growth, maturity, good things we can pass on to others, etc.). Sometimes I can't stand the reminder of what I already know to be true but its too good not to share, ya know? I know God is making me better, its come through a lot of pain and heartache and betrayal and things I would never want to experience if given the choice, but who of us would choose hard things?! But how many of us have benefited from hard things? Sigh. DARN IT, right?! I was telling someone recently that I'm not the same person I was a year and a half ago, I've changed...(I mean, please, I'm the same...I feel like I've hardly changed since jr high), but I mean, I've changed in that I know I'm better than I was in a few ways, a few big ways. They might not be apparent on the outside (I'm mainly referring to my heart), but I can feel them on the inside -and that's something, that's God-work. God-work is hard, refining, drag -you-through-the-mud work, but coming out on the other side brings good life-giving things. Keep in mind that your process might in fact be "the thing." Keep on keepin' on. xo

March 17, 2016

Spring Break // Spring Break

Whew! Its been kinda nutty around here! Its always a bummer when Adam's spring break doesn't line up w/ Brennan's, it seems they both end up getting the shaft a bit b/c you can't really miss a week of work and its not ideal to miss a week of school (esp right before a long break). This year my sister asked if Adam and I wanted to join her and her husband in Sun Valley, ID for a few days and it just happened to line up w/ Adam's spring break! It took lots of maneuvering and some serious graciousness by several friends of mine to look after B but we made it work and off we went! (B got sick before our trip so it was looking like we might need to cancel but thankfully, she got well enough and we were able to go and have a good time). We ate good food, played lots of darts, walked around the cute town and went shopping, took the ski lift up the mountain and ate yummy food while taking in beautiful view, etc. Fun times. When we got back it was B's turn! Some dear friends of ours joined us for FUN TIMES at the brand new so Cal Great Wolf Lodge! We all had a great time and came home water logged and wiped out! Yesterday Adam took B to Disneyland (he had a free hook up!) and the two of them had a great time and came home late tired and happy. :) Today Adam is at work and I'm going to take B to a movie and tomorrow we're having a long play date to round out her spring break, I'd say we all scored pretty well this year on spring break fun!

It feels like its been go go go lately with nannying and travel, March has flown by! I just announced a shooting trip back to Waco at the end of April, I have one spot left if there happens to be any interested Wacoans reading this! :)

Lastly, HAPPY ST.PATRICK'S DAY! As I have said many times before, since living in Ireland St. Patty's is especially heart warming to us, I hope everyone out there is wearing green and giving the Irish some love today! xo